Authenticity Within ME First!
I spent years yearning to be ME. I didn’t know it for several years that is what I was seeking. I was seeking to FEEL accepted, enough, loved. FREE, at peace, fulfilled in life!
What I didn’t know at the time is that I could find these within me. I had been so conditioned to seek for outside approval and belonging - praise and validation. So much so that I didn’t even realize I was outsourcing this need to outside people! I was taught indirectly that this is where worthiness, joy, and love came from - from being liked and thought highly of by: others, “god” or “Jesus” or a leader.
I was dying inside. I was suffocating. Drowning. Trapped in prison within my tormented body. I was so NOT me, that I didn’t even know how disconnected I was from my truth for years!
It took life forcing me, in a sense, to entirely upend my life dreams goals and vision and start a new one from seemingly nothing. Except this one, delightfully, was soul designed - even though I wouldn’t understand it that way for quite some time.
Learning to embrace my AUTHENTIC HONEST TRUE inner self has brought me home to the feelings and experiences I yearned for and relentlessly sought through external sources to no avail.
I know now that whereas authenticity I used to think of as how I related to others and expressed myself externally, is ACTUALLY at its core, honestly expressing myself to ME first!!
Authenticity starts within me, with me, TO me!!!
It began in my mind.
In the quiet moments alone.
In the honest facing of unpleasant or shamed parts of me.
In the expression of repressed and judged aspects of my emotions.
In actually admitting to myself all that I desire in this lifetime!
The full range of my human expression, divine and sacred all the same. Perfect in messiness. Mystical in shadow parts of me. All divine. All perfection. All ME.
In the embracing of the lower human expressions I was then able to elevate my perceptions and choose higher ways of thinking feeling and being, thus coming into more full embodiment of my divine nature in human form.
The sacred journey of our souls - aligning the human thoughts emotions and physicality with LIFE, the essence of our infinite beings!!!
To KNOW our true selves
To LIVE AS our souls
To EMBODY the divine as physical humans too
This is bliss
This is why I believe we chose to live on Earth as humans
THIS IS AUTHENTICITY. THE MOST FULL DELICIOUS EXPERIENCE AVAILABLE TO US - to BE ALL OF US!
